6 Years Ago Today


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Image Credit: Denishia S. Johnson

Dear Journal,

I am so in the love zone right now. I just

got out of the tub and now I’m laying here listening to Alicia Keys, thinking about how I can’t wait to be next to Big again.

I went over my brother’s house last night. Mr. and Mrs. B came over too. And they brought Nas. While I was there, in the midst of their family night, it made me realize how much I want that for myself. B and Nat looked so….perfect for each other. It really inspired me. It made me believe in love even more. And looking at the two of them and their family, I realized that that’s exactly what I want.

I want to wake up every day to the same person. I want to pray together. I want to grow together. I want to be the one at the end of the day that’s there to talk about everything that went wrong at work and all the things that went right. I want to make reservations at our favorite restaurant. I want to see him standing in the mirror behind me while I’m washing off my makeup at the end of the night. I want to make him soup just the way he likes it when he’s sick. I want to catch him smiling at me when he doesn’t think I’m paying attention. I want to sit and watch him have long conversations with my Daddy. I want to see him and my Daddy laughing and watching sports. I want to lay in bed- just watching t.v. with him. Or up in the middle of the night- just talking. I want to wake up early to cook him breakfast while I’m wearing his oversized shirt. I want to look at him and be assured that I’m the only woman in the world that he wants.

I think I’ve fallen in love. And I just want him to know….



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