Note to Self

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Dear Self,
Before you start to doubt yourself, thinking “If only I looked like…” remember who tf you are. Show me the baddest b**** on tha Gram & I’ll show u a b**** thats had her 💔 too. Social media will have you thinking that THIS will make him stay when in reality this chick has been cheated on, too. It’s not what you look like that determines whether or not you’ll get cheated on–its the man you’re dealing with who decides that.
You were created by the Most High. You are beautiful. You are enough. And anytime giving your ALL isn’t enough then you’re giving it to the wrong person.

-TheRealBlackCarrieBradshaw

I’d Rather Go Blind

Written by Ellington Jordan, Billy Foster

Performed by Etta James

Something told me that it was over, yeah
When I saw you and her talking

Something deep down in my soul said
“Cry, girl” cry, cry
When I saw you and her walking around

And I’d rather
I’d rather go blind boy
Than to see you walk away from me, chile no

So you see, I love you so much
That I don’t wanna watch you leave me, baby
Most of all I just don’t, I just don’t wanna be free, naw

I was just…I was just… I was just sitting here thinking
Of your kiss and your warm embrace, yea

When the reflection in the glass that I held to my lips now, baby,
Revealed the tears that was on my face, yeah

And Baby, baby, I’d rather, I’d rather be blind boy

Than to see you walk away, see you walk away from me

Sunday Service

 

cross_clouds.jpgI’m so glad I went to church today. Hell, I’m so glad I went anywhere at all today. Because yesterday I didn’t even leave the house. I intended to. Put on clothes, did my hair and everything. I even put on a swimsuit and opened the front door to go out there, then I changed my mind. As badly as I wanted to feel both the sun and the water on my skin at the same time, I wasn’t ready to be in the world. It’s a process for me. And some days, I just need to sit and deal with my feelings. And I feel like I did that yesterday. Continue reading “Sunday Service”

I Broke His Heart, For No Good Reason

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So here I am thinking that Aiden and I are back together. I mean like, not officially, but definitely on the verge, especially since I’ve gone to see him a couple times and we’ve been talking more and I’ve retreated back to calling him “baby” vs. Aiden and the fact that we say I love you at the end of our conversations. I mean, right?

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