Run In, Run Out

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I did a YouTube video the other day talking about how I ran into him this week. It’s crazy because just a few days prior to that, I decided that I wasn’t going to “look” for him anymore. Being in such close quarters, I found myself subconsciously still trying to see him. It’s funny how the universe works sometimes. Just when you make a conscious decision that you’re moving on, the forces that be will intervene. I talked about this in another post I made where I referenced a concept that I coined the “universal text message” which is the idea that as soon as you truly move on from someone, it seems that the universe sends them a text telling them that you’re happy & now’s the time for them to come back into your life.

Being that we are in this unique situation, I was fully aware of our chances for running into each other at some point. In fact, I was secretly hoping for a casual run in, that is, until it happened. It’s crazy because prior to that, I’d planned it out in my head- what I’d wear, what I’d say, how I’d react. Needless to say nothing went according to my plan.

There I was, minding my own business & I looked up & he was heading towards the same direction as me, coming head on. I’m not sure if he noticed me first, although it only seemed natural because as soon as I realized it was actually him and not a mirage, we were engaged in full eye contact. I wondered if he read my lips blurt out, “Oh God!” just as I read his mind utter, “Oh shit!” I did an about face and ducked into the first door I saw. I stood there, literally shaking.

For a split second, I thought about making a major life decision, something I could do to avoid another awkward encounter like that. Then I decided, “No.” I doubt that he’s considering changing his lifestyle on account of me so why should I? At the same time, though, I felt like I was running out of option. But we should be able to coexist in this vast world, I thought. The other part of my brain replied, “Yea, but this town ain’t big enough for the both of us.”