I was just sure that he was gonna call today…didn’t happen.
I’m so ashamed to admit that I can’t get this guy out of my system. I just can’t And I don’t know what to do about it.
I think about him every hour of every day. And the more I think about him, the more confused I get. I keep telling myself, “but he was so different,” “he was such a nice guy,” and “he seemed so sweet“. And the fact that he still answers the phone, but won’t call me…it tells me that he is a nice guy– but he’s just not interested.
That’s where my problem is. I hate feeling rejected. And sometimes even ignored by him. I hate that the last time we really talked was when I slept with him. I hate the fact that fact that he disappeared on Valentine’s Day. I hate the fact that he didn’t call me back to find out about my “going away party”. I hate the fact that he hasn’t tried to call and check on me at all. I mean– he ain’t checking for me! And while all of this should be reason enough to say SCREW HIM, yet, I still want him to call.