Writer. Blogger. Traveler. 30 something. @TheRealBlackCarrieBradshaw
I have no idea why but I’m feeling so anxious right now.
Like, I can’t get still. I can’t get my mind still. I’m physically uncomfortable sitting in this chair, trying to adjust my position, shifting my weight, changing the setting on this heater beside me. My focus is out of focus and the only thing that feels right is to write. Continue reading “The Right Thing. The Write Thing.”
I’ve always believed in the power of words. I’m a writer, after all, it kinda goes with the gig. My life is filled with hand-written inspirations of yellow sticky notes in my home, in my car, in my office. In my purse.
For no apparent reason yesterday, everything was going well when suddenly, I felt uninspired and overwhelmed. I wallowed in it for a moment before quickly deciding to change my own mind.
I woke up this morning, unsettled. For whatever reason, he was on my mind. My thoughts almost held me hostage again until I said this aloud, “If it brings you happiness, then it brings me peace.” I like the idea that whatever is bringing joy into someone else’s life brings me a sense of peace, despite the fact that it may hurt or inconvenience me. I’m choosing to put my feelings aside for someone else’s happiness, creating a peace within that. To some people, that may sound extreme. It may seem like I’m choosing them over me. But I find profound strength is choosing to be at peace regardless of someone else’s choices even if it hurt.
You know, I just feel so good when I’m in a creative space. Continue reading “Look for the Light”
In this moment, I am engulfed in the peace that I’ve been praying for. Continue reading “Unanswered Prayers”
He loves me. he loves me not. Continue reading “he Loves Me Not…”
When 2018 began, I had no idea how challenging it would be… Continue reading “Challenge & Change”
So I met this really cool chick in my new office and we had lunch today. Being that the two of us make up 50% of the minority population in my entire company, it was important for me to reach out and connect with her. Continue reading “Like Attracts Like”
If love seeks love, then I feel like, sometimes, when you think you’ve lost love, that’s really just God’s way of bringing you back on Him. Continue reading “Seeking Love”
In addition to treating me for depression, my doctor also prescribed that I “Forget about the asshole that screwed you”. Turns out, I really did need a doctor to tell me that. Continue reading “Doctor’s Orders”
For several weeks now, I’ve been on a self-proclaimed quest to find happiness. I initially thought that if I changed career paths, then that would make me happy- to be in the field of media, getting to do what I want to do, at least sometimes, while gaining experience & learning first hand media production. Then I figured that what I wanted was to make more money- and so I thought a new job could offer that. Alas, I concluded that I just really wanted to be alone- to take some time for myself, away from everyone, to focus completely on me. So I took a hiatus from friends, social media, even from writing and making videos on YouTube. Continue reading “In Pursuit of Happiness”
