The reality is that I'm almost willing to feel anything other than this pain. I'd rather be high. Or drunk. Or pissed off MAD.
Month: August 2018
Passerby
Remember in the Sex & the City movie after Big freaked on the wedding day, then Carrie got into the limo & they drove pass each other & briefly met eyes? It was just like that.Except that I was in my office & he was in the back of a car. But I saw him, …
Out of the Blue. Again.
I really feel like Aiden should know me by now. Know me well enough to know that I know when he starts calling multiple times with random questions, something is on his mind. So I wasn’t surprised that he’s been reading my blogs & checking up & things like that because he’s always supported my …
The Real Thing
Am I open to love again? Yes. Absolutely. I love falling in love. It feels so good. And if what I felt with him could feel that good & it wasn't real just imagine how good it will feel when it is The Real Thing. * I'm not sure if what I felt, what I had with …
Breakup. Breakthrough.
If the way we communicate with someone says anything about how we feel about that person, then what was he saying to me?
Existential Moments
I'm not even sure what led me there today: my heart, my legs, my feet or my head, but I ended up on an empty park bench this afternoon. The same one where we, in fact, were just days before, holding hands & looking up at the sky. I sat there, in the exact spot …
Just like Déjà Vu
I hear the door to the hallway open. Around the corner walks my co-worker straight towards me, "De'Ja, some guy in the hallway is asking for you." My heart did a back tuck & my mouth, I'm sure, hit the floor, I swallowed a breath & gathered my composure so as not to alarm my …
What Do You Want?
I fearfully asked God if he was the one for me or if I should let him go. God said the realest thing He's ever said to me.
he Loves Me Not…
He loves me. he loves me not. He loves me. he loves me not. Actually, I wasn't shocked But heartbroken at the thought Of not having him there. But then again, even with him there I may as well be alone But one night @ home I stumbled upon the throne of The One that …
Seeing is Believing?
What do you believe? What you see. What you hear. Or what you feel.